Moved

I have changed my blog link.

www.ameyeoh.wordpress.com

Enlighten yourselves.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 8:56 AM, , links to this post

Raw feelings

And I realize even in the circle of friends you have, the ones you usually hang out with, there lies even smaller groups within. People, community, race, gender, duos. We all just can't seem to bind. A fact of life.

I really should stop judging people. Where on earth have I picked this habit from? I also should stop thinking that the world has their backs against me.

I used to be known the peacemaker between a fight. I also received mockery. And now look where I am at. I need to find that gift and begin tolerating.

Parasites are palpable to me now. If only I could kill them instantaneously when the chance was there. Oh how they drain mental intelligence for their own use! Need to be more alert.

On a lighter note, I think I have established my most embarrassing moment. I contemplated between the two. One of which I forgot my lyrics in a singing competition and dashed out of the hall and the other is a granted ability of making people fall asleep when I converse.

I just had to say that.

Level of annoyance: *beep beep*

I must begin to blog about more enlightening things.
I need to live life.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 8:25 AM, , links to this post

Rants

I usually refrain from this but...

I have the sudden urge to go bungee jumping.
I need to break out of the usual realms.
I must try something NEW and FRESH!
I want to take risks.
Dare to dream.
Dare to be different.
And when it changes an hour later.
GRRR.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 7:42 AM, , links to this post

Channeling Confidence

Imagine the degree of temperamental level to commit an offense. It could root from frustration, anger, self-satisfaction and personal vengeance against an organization. All in all, it takes much willpower to carry it out.

And there you have it; a planned murder which would usually be instigated by human displeasure. But how about unintentional murder? The -oh shit what have I done- expression following subsequently after this act. Besides motive, what circles the mind when both gazes are locked and the gun is pointed directly away from you, reaching into those helpless souls.

Or what if it had been facing the opposite direction. Committing suicide. Jumping off a building, taking a knife and slashing yourself. At that spur of the moment, the thoughts that raced through, able enough to allow such a scene. We have then lost our sanity.

One thing in common is temperamental change, which at large magnitudes can be that negative drive for negative behaviorism. And again, connected to confidence, the level of boldness. Just as seen, you can be scared to kill but the confidant facet reappears once the trigger has been pulled.

Is it truly the outrage of temperamental whirlpools that drive this class of beings to perform such drastic agendas? And then go what have I done. Forgive me.

At those moments we become uncontrollable, indestructible.

Our laws certainly don't permit this.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 11:40 PM, , links to this post

The Diary of Early Mornings

So I already feel guilty enough not going to school, unlike others who would kill for my spot.
Its been about a week. Dad says no. I obediently listen. Its dad after all.
Hey, at least I'm taking full responsibility right?

This whole fuss has turned my weekdays in to weekends. In Ames dictionary, weekends=free mornings=breakfast.

And my day absurdly starts at 8.00 with out a doubt. I've tuned into the school momentum and it takes weeks before it wears down. My culinary skills haven't seem to improve one bit really. Talk about limited resources and specific requirements now. Sugar and oil free. Sigh. I guess its just the inspiration that overcasts those skills.

Here begins the journey of inspiration:

Day 1 : Poached eggs and bread.

Poached: The yolk slightly overdone exactly as liked. Is toast bread really that dry?

Day 2 : Sandwich

Subway style: Healthy. Just awesome.

Day 3 : Porridge and dishes
-Had this bought from Hutton Lane. (correct me if I'm wrong) They serve really small dishes and fragrant congee cooked with sweet potato. Only served during weekdays, business catered mainly to customers from 9-5pm jobs

Day 4 : Oats
-It makes feel good when you start of the day healthy.

Bran addict: Learned to adore oats. I usually add fruits, soy milk and raisins.

Day 5 : Frittata and Maggi Mee
-shared between the the other sickling, Mandy.

A Frittata Attempt: Inspired by late nights on AFC, this Italian omelet consists of bread layers and egg mixture.

Self cooked and edible: Technically it should be called Nissin Noodles. Most awesome brand in the market!. I bet you couldn't even realize it was instant. (especially the Tom Yam flavor! note:purple packaging)

Day 6 : Scrambled Eggs and Hor Fan
-I know, weird combo. Actually had the hor fan an hour later, when everyone woke

McD Style: I figured by adding adding milk you could get the similar texture and color of your eggs.

Hor fan: Picture unavailable. Similar to char hor fan, this one has wan tan instead of prawns. Thicker gravy used. Dad says you get them in wan tan mee stalls.

Day 7 : tomorrow.
Planning to whisk up some pancakes. Yes no? We'll see.

Note: Pictures above are not the real shots. What is displayed are the closest pictures I can get to the original sight. Some are just for mere mouth watering illusions. Hah. This way, I can hide my artsy attempts with food.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 11:16 PM, , links to this post

I could be in a dream.

Dear readers,

HEALTH MATTERS THE MOST!

H1N1 cases are rising with a total of 15 deaths in Malaysia. Fifteen in total from dates 21.07.09 to 7.08.09. Right now in Penang these cases seem to be at the peak level. Practically half of my classmates are down with the flu or fever on the other hand, I'm still on the road to recovery. It will be utterly too late to wait for Septemeber for the vaccines to be produced. Considering the time taken for conducting tests and medical procedures it looks like Malaysia will get its stock and the end of the year. Well like they say the best defense yet is still:the immune system.

The doctor scared the shit out of me. Informing me of the limited mouth swabs able to be sent to the lab, in KL (wonder how true this could get). Tamiflu, an anti viral drug which is prescribed to patients isn't simply distributed to the local dealers or even private hospitals. You'd have to make a trip to the GH. Even then, the medication only works effectively within the first 48 hours. What made it worse was knowing the side effects of the drug to the brain. Evidently seen through the previous outbreak of flu, a high percentage of patients who got diagnosed with Tamiflu portrayed abnormal behavior, even to the extend of committing suicide.

I thought it was just another day, another kind of flu. Being exposed to the severity of this issue, as crazy as it sounds, I prayed for my time. And thereafter, having those -why-am-I-living-moments, experiencing your heart racing involuntarily like a bulldozer. Terrible feeling.

And next you scan your life. Productivity level, achievements, aspirations, goals, character, bonds, and things that make your life go downside up. It's amazing to be awoken from a good night's rest.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 6:46 AM, , links to this post

When Pairing Food and Numbers

My Add Math teacher claimed that one should do sums with an empty stomach. Reason being for enough oxygen to circulate to the brain.

And this is why I have so much accumulated work.

posted by Amelia Yeoh Jia Min @ 7:48 AM, , links to this post